I’ve been busy lately. Really busy. Busy enough that I booked myself a vacation a few weeks ago and am itching to get away (not yet, alas, but soon!). You know when you reach that point where everything is just too much and you need a change of scene? I’m there. I bet some of you are, too.
The thing is, I can’t always change my outer landscape. I can’t always just pick up and go somewhere (and as we see right now, I can’t always go somewhere fast enough!). So what’s the solution?
I’m pretty sure it’s time to learn how to change my inner landscape. Actually, no…that’s a lie. I’ve been pretty sure it’s time for ages, I’ve just had a tough time doing it. I have always absolutely loved the idea of meditation, but I’ve never had anything resembling success at it. One of two things usually happens when I try to meditate:
1. My internal chatter starts up and I get frustrated because it won’t shut up, which pulls me right out of the whole meditation mindset.
2. I fall asleep. (Embarrassing, probably sad, but also true.)
Obviously, neither of these outcomes is especially conducive to successful meditation. It’s possible I haven’t stuck with it long enough when the chatter starts up, but falling asleep? That one usually seems to be a sign that I need a nap more than I need to try to meditate.
Having said that, I’m aiming to give it another try. If I haven’t managed a week of at least 10 minutes’ meditation by the time I go on vacation, it’ll be a major goal of my time away. On top of that, I’m taking the online Awakening Joy course this year, and it not only mentions meditation, it actively encourages it, so that’s another incentive.
I know that meditation will give me an equilibrium I’ve longed for for a while. I’m quite certain that it will help keep the creativity flowing, and keep my righteous indignation in check (as I noted the other day, nothing gets me from zero to pissed off in less time than injustice, for instance). And if it’s part of the process of becoming more joyful, I’m all for it.
So my question to you is this: have you had better luck than I have with meditation? Was it a rough road when you started out? What helped you get the hang of it? Was it just stubborn perseverance, or finding a particular method, or something else?
I’d love to hear about your experience here, if you have a practice—or what keeps you from meditating if you don’t. Thanks!
(PS: I have a brand new Facebook Page and I’d love to see you there!)